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Sunday, September 24, 2006

Hahahaha, i'm at eepoh's house now!

Stealing other people's wireless connection when i'm supposed to be completing my maths homework!
Oh dear, i'm just getting from bad to worse!
I have to buck up for exams!

:D

Anyway, i apologise for this pointless post.
Nothing to do on the laptop anyway.
Just so bored.
SIGH!
Blooooggggggging awayyyyyy,
JUST TO KILL TIME!

Anyway, i think i ate too much laksa just now!
I have a bad stomach.
Perhaps i couldn't take the coconut milk,
So i've been to the toilet twice since lunch!
GOODNESS!
I think i need a doctor soon.

Oh damnit.
The battery is running out soon!
Didn't bring the adapter!

Before i jiffy off,
Just wanna tell those who are concerned that i'm really fine.
To be in fact, i feel much better compared with the past few weeks!
Stop worrying about me.
I'm really okay now.
I woke up this morning with a huge smile on my face.
Life couldn't be better than this!
:D

Mug hard people!

<3, `PEARLYN/.

*blush blush*
i don't know why i'm feeling like this! :D

xoxo,PEARLYN!
3:02 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARMAINE!

*throws confetti*

Okay so today we were supposed to like study at the library,
But we went to Kbox with ShihHan and Raphael instead!
At first we were supposed to go to the ice skating rink.
Then we decided to go to the movies instead.
But in the end we changed our minds for Kbox!

So retarded can. -.-

Oh and thank you Raphael the da hao ren for sponsering us! :D
Boy do we love hanging out with you. HAHAHA!

Anyway, today was just so fun!
Never laughed so hard for a very long time already.
Honestly.
Not since last year when i sat with Deloras?
I guess so!

They boys sounded good with the mic!
Who said you guys can't sing.
You two are from choir!
And Charmaine sounded beautiful usual.

And i've learnt that fun comes at a painful price!

The first, i sprained my right hand while playing with ShihHan.
Ouch, he very chor lorh leh.
Hahaha, joking later da fei zhu come after me again. >.<

Anyway, couldn't he just let go of the jug?!
ICE WARRRRR!
Ice can be dangerous at times, be careful.

The second..
Let's just say that God didn't like seeing me so happy?
Yeah so he found a way to equalise one of my happiest days.
It was supposed to be a happy occassion!
Celebrating Charmaine's birthday.
And having fun.
But I guess I just had to face it sooner or later.

Honestly, i think its a blessing in disguise right now.
I feel so relaxed now.
Like a load off my shoulder.
It doesn't seem to be affecting me anymore.
I'm not trying to deceive myself.
But i just don't feel saddened,
I don't know why either. *shrugs*

Ohwell, enough of the disturbing stuff.
I'm actually quite relieved that the worst is over. :D

Okay, let's revive those happy times again!
Sorry if the picture below is blur!

Charmaine and Raphael going crazy!

Anyway, after that i went to the club with my family for dinner.
I was full up just eating my sister's fish and chips leftovers.
Cause my dish came at a really late time (cancelled it in the end!),
So i started picking everyone's food!
Hahahahaha!
Itchy fingers!

When mummy went to play jackpot (she lost $20! SEE! Gambling is bad!) and daddy went to watch soccer,
I WENT TO THE READING ROOM TO STUDY.
Oh my goodness.
I was so guilty of staying out the whole day playing!
Somehow i had to make up for it!
And my sister slept on the sofa there. -.-

HAHAHA!
Oh crap.
I'm blabbering shit stuff again.

Ohwell!
WILL END MY POST WITH A PICTURE! :D
Of me in my new outfit!
But you can't actually see the dress, damnit!

Hate it or love it, i don't care!

TOODLES! <3

xoxo,PEARLYN!
12:59 AM

Friday, September 22, 2006

BAH!
I wanna go on hiatus.
I just don't have the mood to update happy thoughts anymore.
There aren't many, to start with.

Exams are coming, oh damnit.
I'm mugging like mad everyday.
I don't know anything, but to get good results.
I want my straight As.
What can i do?
Nobody seems to be statisfied, even though i did quite well for my CA2.

"You better get good results this time arh!'

That's just what i hear everyday now.
What more do you want out of me.
I mean come on, push my limits..

BUT DON'T OVERDO IT.

There's a clear line drawn between being motivated and being forced to study.
I just don't give a fucking damn now.
I get the results to please MYSELF.
I don't care what you think about it.
Wanna praise me? I thank you.
Wanna bring me down? I don't wish to hear.

Anyway, nowadays are just crazy.
Nothing seems to be.. happy.
Personal problems, problems with friends.
I sense that another war is starting.
Yeah, by me.

Sigh,
Why can't people just stop trying to make things difficult for their friends?
It's very annoying sometimes you know.
You might tell me to give and take.
But sometimes you just get so sick of trying to comprimise.
I feel so tired of trying to choose on a side to stand on.
I'll be neutral.
I'll look from my own perspective.

And why can't certain people kick the habit of labelling people?
I mean, I'm being who i want to be.
Don't comment on others like that.
You might say "Oh i was just kidding".
But could you stab someone in the heart, leave him/her bleeding and say "Opps! It was an accident!"?
Have some brains.
Maybe you think you have something i don't.
Might be beauty, looks, body, money, fashion sense or anything else.

But what i want to do is my choice.

So long as i don't try to be the type of person that is not accepted by our society,
Then you have no right to bring me down, just because YOU cannot accept it.
If you're my friend, you'll respect me.
Don't tell me you make friends with people just beacuse of how they look.
Or because you don't like the way they look.

If you don't have the same interest or point of view as me,
Then STFU cause it's not your problem.

Don't worry, i've never judged you by your appearances.

xoxo,PEARLYN!
11:43 AM

Saturday, September 16, 2006

I guess we both needed our time off.
We both needed to release some pressure off our nerves.
I understand how you feel, i suppose.
It's not gonna be hard, just gotta lift my head high and be strong.
Remember, we all have piorities in life.
Just hope this doesn't spell the end of whatever we once had.

I'm putting my trust in God, in fate..

In YOU.

<3,
`PEARLYN/.

how can i throw away a precious jem?
how do you expect me to stop loving you?
it's just difficult.
i'm not hard-up or desperate.
i just can't seem to live without you.

oh dear, how am i gonna pull through?
give me your strength. :D

xoxo,PEARLYN!
12:31 AM

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Hahaha.
FINALLY, i laid my hands on the Credo scores.
It sounds pretty nice, i guess. :D

ShihHan is a crazy lameass guy.
HAHAHAHA!
He is so damn "cold" can!
Try one of these he told me.
"Dang ke dou kan dao yi wan tian ji zhou, ta hui chang shen me ge?"
(What song does a tadpole sing when it sees a bowl of frog leg porridge.)

SHE'S BU XIANG ZHANG DA!

Okayokay, three lines down your face.
And he's very very obsessed with the "mee siam mai hum" thing.
I's so retarded.
Oh gosh, BUT VERY FUNNY!

TODAY I WENT TO GARDENIA'S FACTORY!
Yipeee.
And they are so generous.
Gave three loaves of bread.
Yikes, wonder who at home would consume them all.
Anyway, that place's mega!
Like so nice smelling in there!

Friday's my Grade 5 piano exams.
Sigh.
And i've yet to memorise my scales and stuff for my aural segment.
I'm so dead.
And i've been getting too lil sleep these days!
Been on the phone alot.
Cause i have to many problems to talk about.
Damnit.

Just thought i'd blog abit today.
I don't understand why some people like to look for trouble.
I mean, get a life lah.
At the end of the day, it's your conscience you have to face up to.
Do whatever you want, but bear the consequences after that.

Ugh, life's a nightmare sometimes.

<3, `PEARLYN/.

we're drifting apart.
i want the old you back, very very badly.
it just doesn't feel the same anymore, somehow.
but is this the way you want things to be?
just tell me, be honest.
i won't be hurt.

i'll try not to.

Just because you're deprived of certain things doesn't mean things will change.
It doesn't mean YOU will change.
I love you and i don't want you to go.
I don't want our relationship to move in that direction.
But do you know?

You say i don't give in to you.
But seriously, have i ever thrown any tantrums before?
Have i been unreasonable?
You're the one who "sa jiao" all the time.
And i never complained.
I've been giving alot, really.
It's just that you don't see it.
Don't see the decisions and sacrifices i make privately.
I just hope you realise that i'm already trying very hard.
Struggling here.

Please, just tell me what you feel.
I feel as if.. you're no longer bothered about me anymore.
Sigh,

I don't know.

xoxo,PEARLYN!
9:31 PM

Saturday, September 09, 2006

I surrender.

Yeah, whatever.

Wanna make accusations about me, go ahead.
Wanna assume things, go ahead.
Wanna blame me, go ahead.

FOR ALL I CARE.

I don't give a damn anymore lah.
Some people seem to be insensitive and self centered.
In one way or another.
I'm not trying to say that i'm an angel.
That i'm perfect or whatever.

I don't see what's up with the world man.
It's like you put in effort and yet you don't get what you deserve.
I hate to complain, but it's just so unfair!
I mean, what the hell do you expect me to do?

I'm not some machine.
I'm not some plushie you take out your frustrations on.
I'm not someone you can make use of.

I have feelings.
I have emotions.
I have the ability to stand up for myself.

I am human.

I'm just an ordinary girl.
Stop giving me a hard time.
I'm just someone who wants things to be fine.
Not even "good".
I just wish for fine, i'm satisfied.

But things are far from fine.

I have my best friend telling me that things are not going to be the same anymore.
When i'm trying my best here to cheer both of us up.
And all he does is be pessimistic.
He doesn't even seem to be interested in brightening up the situation.
It's like i'm trying to conquer this mountain.
And everytime someone drowns me with statements like "things are not gonna be the same anymore",
I fall back down to the ground.
And i have to start climbing all over again.
It's tiring you know, to be discouraged so often!

I have a bunch of childish boys mocking at me.
They think its funny,
But actually, it's super lame.
It's super immature.
And it's hurting.
But they just never realise it.
Stupid jokes.

Can't you guys put yourselves into my shoes?
Can't you guys think of how it feels like if you were me?
Can't you guys just be abit more sensible?

And why are you doubting me.
When i trust you so much.
Have i once gone paranoid over all those things you've done?
Seriously, i could've made a big fuss out of it but i didn't.

But you say you're upset with me.
You blame me.
You go into a bad mood.
But you don't tell me why!
I don't even know what i did wrongly.
And there i am just being silly.
Trying to not start a quarrel.
It's like you punched me for nothing.
And instead of taking my revenge, i even try to make the relationship between us better.
It's so dumb!

I don't know why i'm acting like that!
It's just so unbelievable.

All i want, is to know what's going on.
Is that very difficult?

I'm just super confused now.
It's just that i think i have too many things to cope with at one go.
I don't know.

Oh damnit.

--------------------

Heh, let's lighten up abit.

CAUSE IT'S MANDY'S BIRTHDAY!
Hahaha.
Happy birthday my bitching partner.
:D
You're old.
Hahahaha, kidding!
Hope you have good hairdays all year round.

<3,
`PEARLYN/.

xoxo,PEARLYN!
2:31 AM

Monday, September 04, 2006

Maybe Leanne is right afterall.
I've changed.
I used to be her sunshine girl,
But now i'm all confused.
All tangled up.
Things seem to be different.
It's all so wrong.

I don't know how to salvage this situation.
I don't have a clue.

I'm not me anymore..

And it's all because of you.

i need a break from piano exams, mugging, homework and most importantly..
the things i don't wanna hear from you.

I wrote a super long post, but it vanished.

Just want to say that i'm already trying very hard.
Don't make me tired of working..
Tired of trying..

Tired of you.

<3,
`PEARLYN/.

affirmation, it's that simple.
what else can i ask for?

xoxo,PEARLYN!
9:59 PM

Sunday, September 03, 2006

Had this song in my playlist for quite some time alr and its pretty cool.
But i only found the lyrics today!
Decided to post them anyway, :D
Anybody got links to this band's profile?

"Rooftops"
by Lostprophets

When our time is up
When our lives are done
Will we say we've had our fun?

Will we make a mark this time?
Will we always say we tried?

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out.
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your heart out.

All the love I've met
I have no regrets
If it all ends now, I'm set

Will we make a mark this time?
Will we always say we tried?

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out.
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your heart out.

[x2]
Standing on the rooftops
(Wait until the bombs drop)
This is all we got now
(Scream until your heart stops)
Never gonna regret
(Watching every sunset)
We'll listen to your heartbeat
(All the love that we found)

Scream your heart out [x3]
Scream your

Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out.
Standing on the rooftops
Everybody scream your heart out.
This is all we got now
Everybody scream your

(PS: Go see the video on youtube. Mariana showed it to me few weeks ago. It's impactful.)

xoxo,PEARLYN!
4:41 PM

Friday, September 01, 2006

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY! :D

Teachers' Day at in school was kinda boring.
The performance was pretty cool.
Especially the dances and ZQ's band.
Sangeetha's (is this how i spell her name?) singing as well.

Also, i got my report slip back.
I've made improvement i guess.
Oh, and isn't it so frustrating when your English marks are 0.5 from the grade you're expected to have?
UGH!
As usual, my maths was the weakest.
I had a freaking B4.
My dad would be like.. angry?
But, *shrugs*, i don't know.
I've tried already, but not very hard i guess.
Ohwell, i guess i'll have to work towards my end of years.
BUT I DON'T WANA BE A NERD! ):

Went back to Shuqun Primary!
I nearly burst into tears man, seeing all of the ex 6c4-ians.
And of course, many of my other schoolmates.
We all took a picture with Ms Fong!
Bryce is cut off from the image.
HAHA!
I asked Juliana to take that picture with my handphone so its pretty blurry.

Not much of a change i guess.
Just that Bryce is taller than me now!
Humph.
And JingDong's voice is broken!
SO MAN! >.<
Aktar was still the clown there.
And he's still hitting people's head and calling me Zhu Pearlyn.

Karthik said that we're planning to get a hamper for Mrs Wang.
As you know, she's pregnant.
Any ex-students of hers that wanna chip in?
Feel free to contact us!

Took pictures with my girls!
Hahaha.
Hanni went home early.
Didn't manage to get one with her.
The other girls went off to play basketball!
Ohwell, presenting..

Deloras, Jessie and Pearlyn! :D

Deedee and I !
I so miss her lah.
Used to sit with each other during P6.
And i tell you, we would laugh like nobody's business!
She still calls me a snail!
Hahaha, not forgetting KeatYeng of course.

It's so nice to be back.

Anyway, holidays are here!
It's gonna be boring i think.
Planning to go to the beach and DISCOVERY CENTRE!
I WANNA GO DISCOVERY CENTRE!
And Jacinth's birthday is coming alr.
So gotta bring her out i guess.
Other than that, it's homework and cca!

Saw the new score, our proposed new SYF song.
It's called Credo and it's pretty short!
MrLow played some excerpts on the keyboard and it sounds nice!
Sounds like it's in a minor key or something like that.
I can't wait to lay my hands on the score!

Ohwell, hope Muackmuack feels better now!
I hope i'm not the next one to fall ill.
Hahaha.

Off to take my bath! :D

TOODLES!

xoxo,PEARLYN!
4:27 PM